Chugging Along

I've been in school for a few weeks now, just chugging along. I haven't had a single exam or paper yet, so naturally next week I have a paper due Monday, two exams on Tuesday, and an exam on Wednesday.

Today at my Communication Club meeting I ran for and was elected Public Relations Chair. I'm happy because that will give me more things to do aside from just going to class and doing schoolwork. It's nice to have something to dedicate some time to away from the daily grind, you know? Besides, it's good for the resume and for networking, blah blah. I'm also thinking of applying (don't laugh) for Lambda Pi Eta, the National Communication Honor Society. It probably won't be as easy for me to get into this as it was to win my title in the Comm Club, but I figured it would be much cooler to be a part of, not to mention also good on my resume. They have 400 chapters nationwide, and would also be good for networking. Besides, when I apply, the worst they can do is say no.

I've had a weird feeling lately, about men. Or, "boys" seems more appropriate. At first I feel dumb for thinking about boys so much, but as my mom put it, if we're not thinking about boys now then when are we going to think about them? Haha. Anyway, the one boy I had leftover feelings for from last semester turned out to be a disappointment, and I've had trouble finding a new interest, which is unusual for me. Of course, the boys who like me, I don't like back, which is a frustrating situation for everyone. Meanwhile, the boy I thought I liked apparently can't be that interested back, which is also frustrating. So now here I am, with nobody reciprocating feelings anywhere, and no new interest to preoccupy my young adult female self. So much frustration of all types; can anybody find meeee somebody to looooooveee... thank you Queen.

I feel like I have already overthought this whole thing. I'm not really used to playing the waiting game like this. I usually am always interested in someone somewhere. I guess I'll have to bear down.

The career fair is tomorrow and I'm attending. I'm a tad bit nervous because I've never been to one of these before, but I suppose there is a first time for everything and I'm sure it will be a good experience. Sigh. Sometimes I am just motivated for all of the wrong things. I am looking forward to the first weekend in October when I get to drive out to San Diego with Cassie. The more I travel, the harder I find it is to stay in one place. After the summer, it seems impossible to stick around anywhere for six weeks without switching it up. I'm so horribly ready to be done with classes and studying and exams and papers, but so horribly afraid of what happens when all of that is over. Step by step, graduation draws nearer, and there's nothing I can do to stop it...

~L